Wednesday, October 30, 2013

All Hallow's Eve

I love Halloween, but it marks the start of the "holiday season" which I have a love-hate relationship with. I love the spirit of the holidays. I love getting together with friends.  I love the smells of the holidays,  a crackling fire burning in the fireplace, thanksgiving dinner cooking all day long.. I hate the cold weather,  the biting cold wind that chills me to my core.  I hate that the holidays have become commercialized. I hate dealing with the grinches at work.
I'm thinking about quitting my job. Did I mention I haven't found another one? Yes it's something I never thought I would do, but it's literally making me crazy. I'm waiting to wake up one morning, look in the mirror, and realize I've aged 10 years. I've been searching and searching for something else, but so far no luck.  I've been praying for that perfect job for me,  the one that matches all my criteria I entered in the search box to magically appear when I hit enter. I'll find something, right? At least that's what  my friends say. They wouldn't lie to me. The problem is I need "something" now,  the money tree has already been harvest and I don't see it blooming again.
I'm starting to believe this is my midlife crisis.... Feeling lost,  like I never have the chance to really enjoy life and that time is moving so quickly that it may never happen. Staying in bed until 1 on my days off because my motivation has run off with my mind, and is lost. I need a miracle turnaround.
So,  I'm getting out of bed as soon as I hit "post" and I'm going to try my hardest to be productive and positive. If any of you would like to send prayers,  positive thoughts,  or money it would be appreciated.